This is too confusing or out of context to understand for me.
Read the linked article....now it is clear.
Here is a quote from her “Sr Lucy said, “Generally, we must seek permission before publishing a book, if we want to do so. However, after repeatedly asking for permission, since 2016, they refused to consider my request. I have always wholeheartedly offered my salary to the Congregation. However, when I requested the Superior for some money to buy a car to travel for my social works, they denied it. When I was completely denied my benefits, I was determined to take a loan and buy the car. I do not consider it as a violation. “
So....she disobeyed professed authority and wants to remain. You can’t have it both ways. To save the Church in her opinion she disobeyed. So you martyr yourself for the Church then do so. Sounds like she didn’t accept martyrdom but wanted celebrity of doing her own thing yet staying a nun. That’s antithetical to being obedient. She’s out and needs to be out.
Yes, very poorly written