Eleutheria5, you may want to spend more time studying prophecy. After all, what is coming (the Time of Jacob's Trouble) is going to be straight from HaShem to His people!
I wish I had the time to study anything (am limping along through the Book of Maccabees I in Greek with aid of English translation for unfamiliar words and usages; behind in every other study). Hashem, however, will take care of us all.