I have always thought the most amazing thing a bout the disciples were their deaths or torture in one case. Not a single one denied Christ when the time came that they could have saved themselves by changing their story about Jesus. 12 men and not a single one saving himself by recanting.
Could you be stoned, crucified or boiled in oil by crowds of people screaming at you to changed your tune and not change your story if it was a lie to begin with?
These men lived and saw something so amazing that they stood true when the time to take a stand came.
Peter denied Jesus three times to save his skin.
I agree with you.