I’ve been on meds since I was 6 and I know exactly what I am. A washed up tired loser going nowhere and lies awake at night wishing he wasn’t alive. Did the drugs do it? Damned if I know or maybe I was supposed to return to god and missed my appointment.
Hang in there utherdoul.
Ask Him if you missed the appointment. See if you can make another one.
I doubt you missed one.
You are still here for a reason.
Trust that God knows what He is doing, FRiend.
All our hardships train us for something in the future, whether it be to help another or to acquire a skill we will need for ourselves.
Ask and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you...
Praying for you, friend.
I've concluded from these two (they don't know each other) and from my own experience with migraines, that any neurological issue will eventually "learn" its way around any Rx that you throw at it. Eventually they don't work anymore, but any attempt to withdraw becomes a horrifying prospect.
Meanwhile, I have two teenagers (!). Depression in them manifests as anger, defiance, withdrawal, and low frustration tolorance. When they get like that, they get a glass of water and a little pill cup containing the following:
1000 mg. fish oil, enteric coated
1 B complex tablet, timed released, 50mg each
1 extra folic acid, 400 mcg. (around $.01 apiece!)
1 extra B1 (thiamine) 50-100mg each.
Works like a champ. They're fine within a few hours. Lasts a few days, unless I remember to chase them down with more before another "down" mood kicks in.
They used to protest, but it's worked so reliably that they now know that they'll feel better quickly, so they're quite willing.
Holy mackeral! You sound like you could use some major prayer intervention, FRiend. I’m certain many FReepers would be willing to help. Your thoughts?