Hope you can see this! :)
May God ease your pain and sense of loss and guide you to the joy of being special to someone else. Your Father cavorts in Heaven in a new and perfect body that will never tire or wear out. It sounds like he has earned it.
God Bless.
My condolences.
In time, I have been able to think of my father and mother with a smile and a grin, and not so much with pain and sorrow. I remember all the things I loved about them, the things I found hilarious, the gratitude for raising me in the best way they knew how.
It is the cycle of life, and there is always that feeling that you are on your own in an odd way, that they aren’t there to have your back as they always had (if you are lucky, and it sounds like you were)
Rarely a day goes by where I don’t think of them (see my freep page) and my father has been gone 16 years, my mom 10. But it rarely is painful now, I usually have an unconscious smile when I do it, and my wife will often say “What are you smiling about?”
And I say “Oh, I was just thinking about how my dad would sit at the kitchen table, cigarette in one hand, coffee mug in the other...”
I came across this question years ago & have reflected on it in my many losses.
A question: A Voice said, Look me in the stars and tell me truly men of earth, if all the soul and body scars were not too much to pay for birth?
Remember the good times.
I used to talk frequently with my father, even though he was gone. Even then, he gave great advice.
I can, and thank you for your efforts.
Remember, “You’ll never get over this, but you will learn to live with it.” I know from experience.
Fins to the left.