You need to snap out of it, NOW. Call your clergyman and discuss this with him, or call a healthcare worker and discuss it with him. But you are thinking very black thoughts and they may have consequences in your personal life.
I don’t think Christ was all rosey and happy about his time in this fallen realm either..Hating evil is a good thing..Man don’t know a thing..we need God to solve our issues..clergy, a suit and tie or any other substitute just doesn’t cut it.
But that does not mean we should not keep striving to better ourselves physically and spiritually..
I consider the downtrodden to have a better perspective of how bad this hell hole is..this is not life, this is mankind creating and waking up enough to say Daddy?
I posted a comment saying that I have should have worded this differently. I’m not suicidal; I’m just upset at all the things that are happening. I’m not giving up at all.