I am open to many beliefs. We cannot prove or disprove most of the real big questions. When I look at the macroscopic and ponder the size of the universe, the concept of god seems ridiculous. When I ponder the microscopic, and the uncountable number of things going on within the human machine that must work perfectly at all times, even though much of it is not even part of the body, much less sight, and hearing, without even getting in to how carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, and a few other elements can combine and think and be self aware. Thinking about that makes you believe there must be a god. The only line of reasoning that baffles me, however, is given the fact that life is way to complex to have come to exist on its own that, Therefore, something infinitely more complex must have created it, which leads to an infinitely regressive logic loop.
Unless time is a construct and the infinitely complex source doesn't exist within it - then there's no loop, because there's no causal linking. Quantum physics exists square in the middle of such an idea, linking space and time together as two sides of the same coin, and dissociating causality from witnessed events.