I’d like to give full measure, but I don’t know how. It is a constant fight of will for me. I’m thinking you will understand. I’m an old woman who should be reconciled with her past and all straightened out by now, but it’s a big lie. I am one of those victims of child abuse.
I’m sort of ruined. It manifests itself sometimes in drunken outrage, not often, but it happens, and I forgive myself for it.
I’m so happy that President Trump is going to help these poor children.
It was my fathers brother, then, my stepfather ...and others...I lwas the “untouchable child”. I didn’t understand that for years, ...why no one wanted to hug me or let me sit in their lap.
I understand ther discomfort now. But the damage is done. The women in the family didn’t want to be repulsed by me, but they were, and I’m not even gonna say about the friggin weak assed men (who now remind me of Muslims)
Well, enough, I’ll be sorry for this reveal in the morning.
(((KC)))) I’m so sorry. My husband was physically and verbally abused by his dad, and I’ve told him I wish I could go back in time and get between him and his dad. He had no protector at that time and neither did you. Again, I am so sorry.
Don’t sweat it, KC.
That WWG1WGA works in all directions.
It happened to me too KC. A pervert of an uncle. I’m old enough to think I shoulda been over the mental f*** up 40 years ago. (language apology, i rarely use it but for this it applies) This is why I spend my days praying for a better world for today’s children. I try to look at that as the positive side and I count it a positive that it’s made me a fiercely protective mother, grandmother, aunt and friend. But, even in old age sometimes the day is a struggle for healthy thoughts.
God Bless you and tomorrow instead of picking up the regret try to feel some of the rest of us reaching out to grab your hands to hold.
No worries KC. I was damaged as a child and now I’m almost old and I can see my life was ruined by it, no matter how hard I tried to climb out. Peace.
Same here sweetie. I’m now an old woman too. And you are not damaged. You are victorious. They are the ones that will have a front seat to the horror in hell.
So, when the darkness rolls over you, and believe me when I say I know what that’s like, just remember, I’ll meet you in heaven if you’re willing and we will be whole, healed, holding hands and praising the Lord.
I figure that every day I can slip in one thing that trips up the black hats, even if it’s just learning something here at FR or on the Q page and passing it on, I’ve taken a shot at them that deserve it.