Posted on 04/19/2017 11:39:30 AM PDT by CedarDave
Kerianne Gardner of Albuquerque had read the obituary I wrote about my 23-year-old son, Devin Glenn, when it ran in the Journal on March 14, nearly a week after he had stuck a syringe of heroin into his arm, a habit he had managed to keep from me for nearly four months until his death later that day revealed his secret.
Gardner was a regular reader of obituaries, she told me. As a stylist who does hair for older clients, she sometimes came across names she remembered.
She hadnt known Devin, had never heard his name. But after she read about him, how young he was, how sudden his death seemed to be, his name became one she could easily remember.
The next day, Gardners 16-year-old daughter, a brilliant, beautiful girl with a love of birds and a reserved sensibility beyond her years, put a .40-caliber handgun to her forehead and fired.
Aurra Gardner had been a straight-A honors student and was in her sophomore year at Eldorado High School. She was an accomplished cello player with the Albuquerque Youth Symphony and her school orchestra. She loved her family. She didnt drink, didnt do drugs, didnt seem haunted by any past trauma or boyfriend drama, didnt dwell in the darker corners where despair hides.
If you were to meet her, to meet us, youd have thought she was a happy girl, Gardner said.
Aurra was also her own worst critic, a girl who demanded much of herself, her mother said. She expected perfection from herself, she said. "You dont have to be perfect, Id say. But for her, that was not OK.
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I'm far from being an expert here, but I believe the lesson for parents and grandparents are to be aware of behavior changes that go beyond regular changes that occur during the young teenage years. Hopefully recognition can lead to intervention before a tragic event such as presented here happens.
My high school valedictorian (also voted most likely to succeed) committed suicide less than a year after graduation. Her story sounds remarkably similar to his. Sometimes the pressure on young people to always succeed and be the best is more than they can bear. It’s the very accomplished one’s you have to keep an eye on.
This is a horrible, tragic event, unbearably sad.
My time came in my second year of college. Luckily, when it happened to me, I blew out completely with a nervous breakdown, pretty much became catatonic, and had to be institutionalized for about three months. Honestly, while I had experienced setbacks in things that I was trying to do, I never really experienced failure until that time. Between that and my tendency to keep things bottled up inside me, my circuit breaker popped, possibly preventing me from doing something permanently similar.
It doesn't take much to push you over the line, and I learned a lot from the experience. I'm 63 now and quite happy with the way that my life has turned out. But I was only saved to get this far because, when I collapsed, I didn't fall off the cliff at the same time.
Make sure you watch the video. The music is Saint-Saëns: The Swan (Cello and Piano) and unfortunately it sets the mood. She was only 14 when she played it; a couple of misses but overall acceptable.
I did watch the video. I know the music well. Such a beautiful and talented young girl. A tragic loss to her family and to all of us.
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Just terrible :(
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