Yes. It’s too hard.
I am not a saint. Nor will I seek to forgive him.
Call me horrible.
Jesus commanded you to do it. He said “pray for your enemies”.
Like I said I’m not saying he should not be punished for his crimes in this world. Yes he should, very much so. He’s clearly a danger. However hell was only made for satan and his cronies, not for us. He does not deserve it. Pray for his soul, pray for his conversion. Pray that the demons that torment him will leave!