[imardmd1]

Ben, what helped me 40 years ago in my very similar state was being counseled to give myself over to the Lord and trust in Him fully on His promise in Philippians 4:6,7 --

"Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."

Read it, memorize it,meditate on it, breathe it, live it.

The core thought: "Don't worry or despair about anything. God will take care of you." Here's the spiritual song for it:

Be not dismayed whate’er betide,
God will take care of you;
Beneath His wings of love abide,
God will take care of you.

Refrain:

God will take care of you,
Through every day, o’er all the way;
He will take care of you,
God will take care of you.

Through days of toil when heart doth fail,
God will take care of you;
When dangers fierce your path assail,
God will take care of you.

All you may need He will provide,
God will take care of you;
Nothing you ask will be denied,
God will take care of you.

No matter what may be the test,
God will take care of you;
Lean, weary one, upon His breast,
God will take care of you.

[Heart-Rest]

You're right, "imardmd1", that song really does express that kind of trust in God that can help people get through very difficult times and painful trials in life.   Here's a very moving version of that song I found on youtube.

   "God Will Take Care Of You" - sung by the children at "Michael's Children's Home" (orphanage)