“I have never wanted to be normal or ordinary. . . . I am running out of time to avoid being just another guy.”
Firstly, don’t take what I am going to say as a slam. I am 52 and want to be helpful. What I quoted above from you suggests a narcissistic tendency in your outlook. (That’s not just you - it’s pandemic these days!) Your primary focus in life seems to be on comparing yourself to everyone else, with an anxious need to be regarded as extra-extraordinary in your uniqueness.
Each of us is unique, but what really counts is that you DO work every day to support yourself and avoid being dependent on others - that alone is a worthwhile achievement. When you choose a spouse (wisely!) and begin to support children, your sense of purpose and worth will increase manifold. You can trust in that.
Hang in there, look forward and outward, and give yourself a break. 29 years is still youth in today’s world. You’re just about to come into your own as an adult.
Lets send the Magic Negro back to the craphole he crawled out of.
Oops, you forgot to credit that racist rag, the Los Angeles Times and their contemptible contributor, David Ehrenstein, for the moniker, "Magic Negro."