It is always possible to make a new start by means of repentance. "You fell," it is written, "now arise". And if you fall again, then rise again, without despairing at all of your salvation, no matter what happens. So long as you do not surrender yourself willingly to the enemy, your patient endurance, combined with self-reproach, will suffice for your salvation. "For at one time we ourselves went astray in our folly and disobedience," says St. Paul. "... Yet He saved us, not because of any good things we had done, but in His mercy". +Peter of Damaskos
Similarly in life -- where it's WAY harder to remember, wanting to strap a bomb onto myself and go to the office of the health insurance company is something that other religion is in favor of, but for me, sometimes, it seems like a really good idea, know what I mean? (Admit it. We've ALL been there.)
So I have to remember that for reasons best known to Himself God loves those people too and sent Jesus for them too. And not only that, but many of them are probably trying reasonably hard to do His will.
And even if that were not true, there is a host of reasons why I ought not to inflict my anger - which rises, at bottom, out of my faithlessness - on the poor folks who work there. AND it doesn't do spreading the Gospel a stitch of good.
So, what to do? Let it drop, set it down, apologize, turn to Jesus, move on.
And I would say this is not how I get saved, this is what being saved IS for a neophyte like me and at this point in the heilsgeschichte and in MY hielsgeschichte. The long climb gives me the strength to be at the summit, when and if I shold reach it.
So in general total agreement and thanks. In the details, a little difference in POV.
Repentance is translated from metanoia isn't it?