I was filled with the Spirit in the beginning when I first heard my Master's call - and then I quenched Him for a number of years - repented, surrendered and was filled again.
Self-will is a snare. If we want to do it "our way" - He'll let us, and we'll fail.
Thank you, Alamo-Girl. I’ve found and I’m finding that if I do it God’s Way it can look like failure for a bit, but it isn’t, not ever. His the Power of the Resurrection and the Life, proven forever in Christ Jesus my Lord, amen - all this through the torture of the selfless life, the cross, the 3-day grave. I thank Him for you.