In addition, you do not, or worse, will not understand the legal jeopardy you create for FR.
Please get professional help. People have probably told you to get help in the past. They were right. Take copy of your posts and those of others asking you to be rational and legal. Do it right away. FR will be here when you come back.
It is entirely possible that some rightwing fanatic is sending the anthrax letters, and more probably the anthrax threats. Because this person or people could be a rightwing crazy should not send the people in this forum into a tizzy unless they, themselves, feel deeply that they too have become too fanatical. If they don't feel that way, they should not worry--they have nothing to worry about! If they rise up with conspiracy theories like the ones purporting Margaret Sanger to be a Nazi or some such thing, then yes, they should have something to worry about; at least this would provide a situation in which people can reexamine themselves and their beliefs (and perhaps the extent of their participation on a politically fanatical message board).
For the Rush Limbaugh/religious rightwingers, feelings of superiority are over. Division is passe. It's going to get more difficult now. History demands more in the way of personal examination and responsibility, something beyond simple blame, and something more in the light of what the individual owes fellow human beings--not just a go-to-church, general responsibility, but a specific one.