I think you have already been able to reach this conclusion on your own, but I wish to support it, just the same.
It is rarely a good idea to let people certainly with no real knowledge of your condition or circumstances, and quite possibly with no particular or specialized knowledge to support the opinions they put forth, guide you in important personal decisions; least of all, those who have the mistaken certainty that they know what is best for everyone.
As you have already discovered, you can post that you have long term chronic pain (redundant, I know), with opiates not being an option and have some post that opiates are the preferred treatment for short-term pain. Well, duh, thank you Captain Obvious! Maybe tomorrow we can learn the startling news that the sun rises in the east! Unfortunately the problem was neither the alleviation of short term pain, nor the preferred direction of sunrise.
The right medicine is the one that works for you. Period. I hope that you will be able to find a doctor who has a real interest and experience in your particular circumstances.
Your life is precious in the eyes of God. Suffering comes to each of our lives in different ways. God will not let us carry more than we can handle. Maybe your situation will be the very one that proves wrong the people who would declare themselves your judges.
When someone tells you something won’t work, some reasonable questions for them are:
Under what circumstances did you try this?
What protocols did you follow?
How did you validate the results?
What parameters may have influence those results?
How has the state of the art changed since that trial?
Best wishes and prayers for a successful result in your search for relief.
Thank you so much for your empathy. As I’ve slowly discovered an alternative to death, I’ve gradually approached my family and friends with this decision to try something unorthodox.
They love me and some are whole-hearted. But some are afraid to even look at the information. (And they say that pot makes you paranoid. When you’re too terrified to even watch a YouTube video, then you’re paranoid.)
Yes. This is my last resort. And I’m going to leave my home and find a place to rent in order to even try this last resort. Who would do this for Vicodin?
Everyone thinks that they’re strong enough to withstand pain. Sure you are... but even a consistent small pain will destroy you in time.
Again, thank you for your support. As I take the leap off the cliff into my final hope, I do need that support.