Let’s make this simpler: Would you state, in your own words, the message of the Gospel? It will help give me a starting off point for you.
I see NO EVDENCE that you would understand any message of the Gospel. Please, explain to me where mear mortals would gain the ability to Crucify and kill God. JESUS died on the cross at the behest of God HIS FATHER to absolve me of my SINS. Seems to me, the simpler the message, the further over your head it goes. I'm no socon (and don't belittle those that are) but you certainly learned of the Gospel in a wholly different place than I did. Seek help in your failings to understand. Blackbird.