I spent all of ten minutes scanning his sight and came across the above snip - seems not much has changed since I gave up on him over 15 years ago.
Hopefully you'll see the error in the above quote from his website under the heading "The Real Third Secret", if not, then I don't know what else to say.
Is this your own idiosyncratic form of contracted speech - a verbal sort of brachygraphy? What is it you think you said? Perhaps you should just say it.