I seriously considered suicide. Had my son not gone by me in the hall on one of his little errands and said in passing "I love you, daddy" I wouldn't be here today.
That would have been the night I did it.
Hang in there, N&V. If not for yourself, for your son. He needs at least one sane, rational parent! One of my cousins told my Dad they were both going to Heaven, no doubt about it, because they’d already been thru Hell here on earth.