"They asked us if we wanted someone to play taps, but I knew I would lose it if they did."
Happens to me every time.
It does that to a lot of people. When I was in college, the band was asked to come and play for the VFW at a flag burning ceremony (retiring old worn out flags). We played the National Anthem and other patriotic songs. When they asked us if we could have someone blow taps when they started burning the flags, our band director grabbed two of our trumpet players and sent one of them running all the way across to the other side of the fairgrounds where we were to stand just out of sight. His job was to echo the first trumpet player from a distance when he heard him play. The effect was incredibly moving. I remember people in the stands sobbing out loud.