[MamaB]

Hello. I got home from the grocery store a few minutes ago. Think I should have waited until about midnight since it is extremely hot here plus it was rush hour. Not a very good decision on my part.

Thank y'all for praying for our family. It really means a lot. Since Jan died on 15 Jan 2004, my family has lost 3 cousins, a brother, my husband, my bil and 2 real good friends. Plus, my husband lost 2 aunts and an uncle in that time. Since my bil was the 3rd one, maybe that will be it for a while. Don't think we can take any more funeral homes and funerals. I would have never believed that my 102 year old mother could outlive all of these people but she has.

I still can not go into the bedroom for any length of time. It just makes me so heartbroken when I do. I don't know if I mentioned it but we had been painting Jan's old room for hubby's music room but now, I think we will make me a sewing-crafts room. It has 3 large windows in it which will let lots of natural light in. I will get me a nice recliner and stitch away!!!

I guess we are doing as well as can be expected under the circumstances. It seems that the least little thing will get me to crying. It does feel like I got a lot of crying done when hubby was in the hospital. I would sit by his bed with tears streaming down my face. But, you know. Through all of this, God's presence has been so real and I know that Jan and her beloved daddy are together again waiting for the rest of us.

[ohioWfan]

Oh, Mama..........we are all praying for you!

Some things just can't be understood here on earth........but you KNOW you will be with your dear husband and Jan again, and that's the hope you have to hold on to.

Thanks for letting us know how you're doing. Hang in there.

[mystery-ak]

for you Mama.....

[Fudd Fan]

Blessings, MamaB. May you feel God's hand on your shoulder and feel His comfort.

[snugs]

Tears can often be a release as long as we keep perspective and from your post I sense that you are.

God Bless you and the rest of the family.

[snugs]

By the way I received this freep mail from Cyberant, sad in a way but in a sense I feel the tone of her message is also conveying a blessed release - similar to how I felt about my mother.

""" CyberAnt | 08/01/2006 12:18:34 AM EDT read

Please let the people of the "Dose" know that my mom passed away Sunday morning (7/30). She had been doing poorly for a couple of weeks, and her pneumonia and UTI just didn't seem to be responding to medication. For several days she had not been eating or drinking anything, and she was struggling to breathe. Aside from the antibiotics, they were giving her morphine to keep her comfortable, and she passed away while I was on my way to visit her (right after church).

Several of the nursing staff said they had prayed with her earlier in the morning.

I am confident that she is in a much better place, singing and laughing and enjoying herself - able to remember all her family again, and be with her husband. At 93, she has had a great life and been loved by a lot of people""""

[homemom]

You've been through soooo much! Your spirit and positive attitude is amazing. Do not let anyone tell you how to grieve; it's normal not to want to go into your bedroom (and it would be normal to spend lots of time in there too.) What a blessing our faith is, to KNOW your dear daughter and husband are TOGETHER, and you will all be reunited someday. God bless you all and grant you comfort and peace.