See what I mean? "Not a real Christian" when it's convenient for you. Here's a hint: You don't get to define who is Christian and who is not, as only your god can. Yes, it is possible for a real Christian to wake up and smell the BS. And no, it wasn't some failed dramatic test of faith that led to it, just a gradual realization.
'As I live, says the Lord, every knee shall bow to me, and every tongue shall give praise to God.'
So each of us shall give account of himself to God." Romans 14:10-12
No. I'm not defining what a real Christian is, Christ did. I'm just communicating the gospel to you. Read the parable about the good vs rocky soil. Don't get mad at me, get educated about what Christianity is. Many people such as yourself get turned off simply because they do not understand it.