I don't look to science for "answers I so desperately seek". Science is perilously slow and subborn about responding to my personal concerns.
But you are not yet willing to give up your sin, so you lash out at God and all who represent. Kind of reminds me of myself, not too long ago.
You are uninvited to tell me what I am thinking. Largely on account of your displayed lack of competence. Maybe you should consider the possibility that I'm genuinely appalled at a biblically-inspired institution that lasts for centuries while periodically committing horrors against people who disagree with it philosophically, and then this same book is held up to me as an unquestionable source of scientific and moral truth.
Are you a good person?
Hard to tell...are you presumptious, and highly distractable?