I understand...I also quit smoking about 15 years ago...THAT was also pretty hard...
hardest thing i ever did was quittin ciggs- took me 8 years- I stopped opioids that i was on for health issue easier than ciggs- That was about 0 years ago- to this day i still have dreams that I’m smoking, that i can still ‘have just a couple of ciggs and not get re-addicted’ etc- terrible things-