Your name is certainly fitting. That much is for sure.
I generally do avoid the Mac circle jerk threads, by the way, because I lose faith in humanity when I do enter them. I make an argument supported by facts and I get insulted and told I’m wrong. Reality doesn’t sit well with you folks. That’s all well and good. Attacking me and ignoring the stark reality of the matter doesn’t change it and no amount of bootlicking is going to change that.
By the way, there has only been one civil response to me in this forum from a Mac person. That person remains, in the nearly five years since I’ve joined, the only individual I believe is actually educated about operating systems that participates in these threads. Sadly, everyone else basically remains a complete jackass.
I’ve never been accused of beating around the bush.
Have you considered therapy? Quite often one can just talk these things out with a sympathetic listener. Of course, that cost a coin or two. I say that in all compassion and it's free.