What Church did you apostate from? just wondering, Roman Catholic, Lutheran, Baptist, Assembly of God, etc.?
Nobody who has truly known Christ - and by that I mean being the central messianic theme from creation, and even before, onwards - could ever be so thick headed as to apostate from it. True believers would die first, rather than deny Christ.
It must have been a church that was very superficial, else you never would have apostatized.
You wrote: “Nobody who has truly known Christ - and by that I mean being the central messianic theme from creation, and even before, onwards - could ever be so thick headed as to apostate from it. True believers would die first, rather than deny Christ.”
Actually, men who espoused great faith in Christ have later turned their backs on Him. That’s just a fact. Some people respond to that fact with something like “Well, they must not really have known Jesus in the first place” but that just doesn’t work. http://usatoday30.usatoday.com/news/religion/story/2012-04-30/clergy-lost-faith-atheist/54651236/1