I'm childless at 42 and haunted by the baby I aborted at 18

dailymail.co.uk ^ | April 25, 2012 | KATE SPICER

[grundle]

Once, at a smart wedding in Northamptonshire when I was about 30, someone handed me a newborn baby and my skin broke out in hot hives.

In Brazil, I met a ten-year-old street kid. I fed him, let him sleep and shower in my hotel room, bought him clothes, and felt an overwhelming desire to protect and nurture him.

I had never before felt such a forceful maternal instinct. These events were profoundly physical reactions, both shocking to me.

Just around the time of my trip to Brazil, the ghost of my never-born came back to haunt me. I began imagining what he might have been like — a tall and sandy-haired boy, who would have been 17 at  the time. I was 35, the age when the  experts say your eggs and fertility start declining.

It’s embarrassing to reveal these visions of my never-born son, and important to understand their significance. This imagined son was not some moral spectre come to punish me; it was my subconscious reminding me to wake up and face reality.

[Goreknowshowtocheat]

So many bought the feminism (I have a career, what more would a baby provide?) Now, they see the freight train coming at them called the nursing home where 75% of the inhabitants are unvisited females. What joy? They are going to sit around and rot and tell each other about their careers? How sad!

[JRandomFreeper]

That happens when you kill babies.

/johnny

[JRandomFreeper]

I'm grateful that when I am old(er) and (more)decrepit, I'll have 2 daughters to care for me in my waning days.

/johnny

[Politicalmom]

What a useless piece of self-indulgent tripe. She really doesn’t feel bad about murdering her child. She only cares about herself, still, at age 42.

I’m disgusted.

[SaraJohnson]

A generation following liberalism’s call into sinning and suffering is why one of the big ten is “obey your father and your mother.” If the boomers had obeyed their parents, so much sin and suffering would have been avoided for our society.

[svcw]

To the headline: good

[exit82]

Abortion is not an eraser.

[decal]

“...I'll have 2 daughters to care for me in my waning days.”

So long as their names aren't Regan and Goneril ;)

[rawhide]

Kate Spicer

If I might reply, the woman can rest assured the baby she killed is in heaven. Maybe one day she will come to Jesus and then they can meet there.

[bray]

Another woman destroyed by an abortion.

Pray for America

[JRandomFreeper]

I'm no King Lear. ;)

But I do expect my girls to leave a handful of pills and a bottle of Jack on the nightstand to encourage my smooth passage.

/johnny

[Darren McCarty]

The high price of “choice.”

[qam1]

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[TigersEye]

I thought the same thing. She never did get that she killed a human being and her life is still all about her emotional comfort.

[OneWingedShark]

>What a useless piece of self-indulgent tripe. She really doesn’t feel bad about murdering her child. She only cares about herself, still, at age 42.
>
>I’m disgusted.

I’m glad I’m not the only one who saw that (and found it off-putting).
Motherhood [and fatherhood] is primarily not about self, it’s about the child (otherwise they wouldn’t be parents).
That said, there’s something wrong with a woman whose only sense of motherhood revolves around ‘I’.

[upsdriver]

A generation following liberalism’s call into sinning and suffering is why one of the big ten is “obey your father and your mother.” If the boomers had obeyed their parents, so much sin and suffering would have been avoided for our society.

It wasn't the "boomers" that took God out of our schools. Nor did the "boomers" give us Roe vs. Wade. Our social decay was well on its way when the boomers became of age.

[Right Brother]

What a useless piece of self-indulgent tripe. She really doesn’t feel bad about murdering her child. She only cares about herself, still, at age 42. I’m disgusted.

Me too. I love this quote:

"Today, I feel more emotional, guilty almost, about that bundle of cells I got rid of. In the bitterest of ironies, that terminated pregnancy remains the sum total of my reproductive history."

Guilty almost? Not a bundle of 'life' or 'love', but 'cells'. What a pig. She can rot.

[RobbyS]

This is real pain she is suffering. Cut her some slack. Without knowing it, she is worried about her soul.

[TigersEye]

Everybody suffers real pain. She makes bad decisions because everyone has cut her slack all of her life.