I pray that I am going to Heaven my friend... not “nowhere”. I certainly hope and pray that we both do. I was just trying to explain myself and my reasoning and all that I can tell you was what was in my heart and mind.
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I agree, you did have a good intention I believe and God will actually bless you for having that even if mis-aimed. It’s asking the Lord for help with the mis-aim that’s the key. It’s the godless, self glorifying world in which good intentions always pave the road to hell. God corrects our errors without a single grudge even if the experience itself is a bummer. Being blessed with chastening sounds like a weird blessing but that’s what happens to people with hope. People with no hope are just tolerated here till they go to hell.