I feel for you. Messing with the GABAergic system is NOT smart long term. Quitting cold turkey can lead to DEATH, although I'm sure on some days you wished that you were!
no kidding......I knew they were addictive but didn't know the long term effects......and I was only having panic during a situational time.....not a panic disorder...I wished I were dead for almost a year and took two more years for my central nervous system and adrenals to heal. Doctors should know more about the risks.......idiots....