Maybe I am sharing too much. But I have nowhere else to turn. I am (was?) a reporter for a weekly community newspaper in Quebec.
A couple of months ago, I was told I'd be freelancing--paid per picture and story, because my former boss, with whom I'd worked for seven years, is retiring and his daughter is taking over and wants new blood. My whopping income has dropped from $450 per week to around $100 per week, which has made things difficult financially at home. My husband makes a good income--but we needed that extra cash. Our house is aging and needs repairs.
We've been married for over two decades, have a 17 year-old son and a 13 year-old daughter. It is quite rare that we are intimate nowadays.
I went to pick up my check today--$190 for two weeks of work.
On point, I have a Masters Degree from the University of Chicago, a year of law school at Northwestern, law school that I finished at UC Boulder.
I find myself sleeping all the time recently. I turned 50 less than a month ago. I'm old now. I literally cannot wake up. I fell asleep on the couch, sitting up, while we were all watching "Grimm" tonight.
I know I need to get my act together, but I find myself crying and sleeping--and even when I clean things up, do laundry,etc., my husband seems to find fault. Maybe he's depressed too.
Because I cut myself as a teenager and got very sad on moving here, I am on medication. So that's not the answer.
Plus, my ten year-old nephew in WI has cancer -- very serious -- and if something happens to him or my Dad, I cannot even cross the border before my papers come in.
Anyway... I guess I just wanted to "vent" a bit. Freepers are a caring group of people.
Thank you for any advice you have. :)
J.
You have a mineral deficiency. I was on and off anti depressants for 20 years. Every time I went off I’d drop into a real state of depression. Then my husband got fibromyalgia and, long story short, I did HUGE amounts of research and discovered that FM is caused by a magnesium deficiency. SO....I started taking large doses of the right kind, as did he, and his FM went away and so did my depression. I had no idea at that time, that I would be cured as well. It’s been 6 years and I’ve never looked back. If you or anyone else wants to know what to take I’ll share everything.
I'm depressed
Been there, done that. I'll chime in with some comments and suggestions too.
I turned 50 less than a month ago. I'm old now.
Turning fifty was worse than forty, granted. But fifty isn't old.
We've been married for over two decades, have a 17 year-old son and a 13 year-old daughter. It is quite rare that we are intimate nowadays.
Assuming hubby is about the same age, he could be having depression issues too. Also, google on "andropause".
I was told I'd be freelancing--paid per picture and story, because my former boss, with whom I'd worked for seven years, is retiring and his daughter is taking over and wants new blood. My whopping income has dropped from $450 per week to around $100 per week,
Sounds like you need to find something else to do. If the new work situation is as described, time to move on. Easier said than done.
Because I cut myself as a teenager and got very sad on moving here, I am on medication.
"Being a teenager" was 3 decades ago. Are you still on meds for that?
Speaking of meds -- I assume you're seeing a doc for the prescription. Time to talk to him, her or it.
Anyway... I guess I just wanted to "vent" a bit.
Vent away.
And, a bit of positive advice: Noting the time of year, is it possible you've got "seasonal affective disorder"? Get a bunch of bright lights, full spectrum compact fluorescents. Install them and use them. I did this last winter, and it really helped my mood through the long winter months.
If it were me, I'd also go shooting. Nothing like the rush of hitting your target. But, being in Canadia, that probably isn't an option for you.